One of the changes people may experience with a major shift in consciousness is in the drivers of life. What used to drive us to action falls away to be replaced by something much deeper.
As the Yoga Sutra describe, when we’re ego identified, we’re often motivated by the avoidance of pain and the attachment to pleasure. We seek what a ‘me’ wants and avoid or repress what it doesn’t. However, this is the essence of suffering and is closely related to the wheel of karma. Round and round we go, chasing what is temporary and constantly experiencing it’s loss – the very thing we where trying to avoid.
When ego identification falls way, the drivers of that slowly (or quickly) shift as well. We then find ourselves moved by nature itself, and then by the divine. Gradually we find life flowing through us.
Over time, this can dramatically simplify our life. It may remain complex on the surface but we lose all the conflicting noise and drama and settle into life itself. We feel supported and things get smoother and easier.
However, sometimes there can be a lag between the old falling away and the new coming on-line. We can lose that ego identification but may still largely be driven by old habits. Our energy physiology also may not yet be clear enough for life to flow smoothly through. There can also be laws of nature still present that are less nourishing.
The old falling away can largely be an internal process or it may express itself quite overtly in our lives. For some I know, the outer stayed much the same while the inner shifted. But for others, the inner and outer both went through major changes. Work, relationships, finances, and more became part of the transition. When some of the karma is roasted with the shift, it may end the circumstances or relationships that where driven by it. Or it may bring what is unresolved to the surface to be processed.
This can begin before the inner shift itself has happened. In other words, the old starts falling away as part of the process prior to the awakening. Only in retrospect can we see where it was going. This can of course be somewhat disconcerting at the time.
We find ourselves in a time of:
a) falling apart, where what had worked before stops working or becomes difficult or feels wrong.
b) a fallow period where what has been looses meaning, stops or pauses. We become without direction.
In other words, it can happen that the old falling away becomes dominant. We may take this as life getting worse or like it has stopped working. But it’s more like a snake shedding it’s skin. The time for the old is over. Now it is for us to discover what is here now.
Of course, this may not be so easy if the falling away is not yet done or the clarity isn’t there yet. So sometimes, we just need to be patient and know that this too shall pass.
We are preparing the ground for the future. Sometimes, this means the old structures may have to be demolished. That isn’t as easy if we’re also in a process of letting go of control.
You experience will vary. This is not universal. Some falling away will take place for everyone but how overt that is will vary widely. And how attached we are to what is falling away too.
But if we have some understanding of what is unfolding, we can know it’s just a phase, a transition, a preparation for what will soon flower. Sometimes we have to climb the mountain to reach the view.