This blog offers models of reality to support our journey. However, I’m well aware it attracts readers seeking the “right answer” or “the truth.” The ego-identified mind wants certainty so it can feel in control. It wants closure on any variable.
And yet, we’re never going to find certainty in the field of change. We’re immersed in an absolute field that offers the stability we seek. Usually, turning within is how we first find that. If we’re supporting this discovery, our life’s journey will be one of growth and evolution. Our world view will expand.
Recently, a friend shared a newsletter article by Joan Tollifson on the “compulsion to closure.”
“This living actuality can never be pinned down or grasped. It is moving and changing — never the same way for even an instant. And yet, in another sense it is immovably always right here, right now in this ever-present immediacy or presence that we can never actually leave. This one bottomless moment is infinite and eternal, without beginning or end, without edges or limits. It has no inside and outside. It is undivided and indivisible. There is infinite diversity and variation, and yet it all shows up as one seamless whole. There are apparent polarities, but they only appear relative to each other, and they can never actually be pulled apart.
“”Reality is simple. It is right here. Present experiencing, just as it is. The morning breeze, THIS cup of tea, the beloved dog trotting toward me, the green leaves, the blossoming flowers, the galaxies dying and being born millions of light years away — this whole amazing magic show. And yet, we can never really pin it down, get hold of it, or explain it in any final way. We ARE it. This indivisible present happening is both obvious and inconceivable. It never resolves into any final shape, it never departs from this present immediacy, and we are never separate from it.”
– Joan Tollifson
She says it beautifully. Sometimes, in response to “can never be pinned down or grasped”, people describe it all as “the mystery” or similar. However, paradoxically, we can know it because we are it.
Yet the compulsion Joan describes is a barrier to this knowing because the mind wants certainty, whereas real knowing is as described.
There is no “one final truth” because humans are simply not equipped to see as God does. Our role rather is to contribute our experiences to the whole and thus the whole becomes more whole and develops closer to the Divine.
We can develop a confidence and trust in reality when we experience its fullness, its competence, and its reliability. But we have to let go enough to settle beneath our need to control. We can then know enough to be deeply satisfied.
The journey is why we’re here, not the end point.