Back on the What do you Want?, I shared Adyashanti’s quote
“In the end, you will always do the thing you wanted to do most.”
In The Good Story, I touch on how the world is a story, but we discover it’s a story we’re choosing. Are we choosing meaning or meaninglessness?
I’d like to explore these ideas a little further. We always choose what we want. What we see as the best choice. In the consciousness of the moment, it always seems the best choice or highest need.
Sometimes that’s not completely clear. But if we watch we’ll see it’s true.
Soon, the question becomes who is wanting? At any given moment, are we driven by the angel or devil? By the light or the dark side? By clarity or ego? It shifts around all the time. The Self may be expressing our purpose through us. Or we may be reacting from fear, fighting what is.
It can be hard to tell if it’s Self flowing through us as the Self doesn’t make a lot of fuss. But in the end, we look at consequences. We are revealed by what we do, not what we say. (where have I heard that before 😉
This internal duality of Self and self can create a competition. We shift back and forth, creating dilemmas between our story and what is real. Even when there is no desire for it to be any other way, we push against the way it’s showing up. This causes us to resist it at the same time we love it.
In other words, we do what we love but the mind is always asking how it can be different. Listing the should’s, the what-if’s, and the if-only’s. Making it wrong so it can feel superior.
Can we allow it to be as it is, without resisting?
Byron Katie observes that the world is perfect so your life right now is just right.
If we question the story we have about what pains us, we find it false. Often, the truth is the opposite. She asks, “What would you be without your story?”
This can be scary for the mind. When we get caught up in our experiences of the world, we loose our sense of connection with source. Mind looses direction from source and starts to try to take control. To feel in control, it must have an answer for everything. Thus, it makes stories about everything.
Often this results in us blaming others for circumstances rather than looking at who it is that is wanting and creating it.
Sometimes what comes up is karmic. This is the consequences of what we wanted in the past that we were resistant to experiencing at the time. When the right time returns, it comes up again for completion.
As we progress down this path of clearing and connect with who we are, the grip of the mind begins to loosen and the rules begin to change. The competition inside has died. We find ourselves in a place of peace and happiness.
As we move out of ego, we see the world as an independent observer. The world simply takes care of itself. We are left to enjoy simple being. Clear off the old habits of mind.
But then it begins to become increasingly clear that the idea we’re independent of what’s taking place is also not a complete picture. The rules of Cosmic consciousness must also be shed. And so forth.
As Adyashanti described, one of the common consequences of this process is the loss of meaning of the old stories. But unless the deeper meanings of soul purpose come to light, we may get stuck there. We can loose the greatest benefits of our awakening.
As Lucia suggested “It’s our duty to enjoy.” We want to choose joy, choose passion. We can’t need to as that no longer grips us. When we are free, there is no need. We want to find our love and feel it. Bring the silence and joy and love out into expression, into the world. Only then does the miracle of grace truly begin to show up.
PS – interesting. This was going to be a key article on flowing love, but it seems something else needed to be said first. (laughs)