Realization or Awakening is not the goal. This is an aspect of the process that’s worth focusing on a little more.
In the usual cycle of growth, we have disintegration, growth, integration, and balance.
In many ways, an awakening is the disintegration phase, when the old falls away. It is a celebration of new vistas but often it can lead to a time of challenge. What has not been seen before, what has not been dealt with now comes rushing forward. Our skillfully maintained avoidances all dissolve to be faced. And pain that has been hidden is now seen in the new detached awareness.
Some people may try to hide in the silent witness. Step out of the world. Avoid the pain. But this is as much a trap as being caught be the senses. Until we bring that awakening forward into our life, we have failed to complete it’s purpose. Missed the point of it.
Feeling our pain and releasing it becomes progressively easier – first from a place of detached awareness when we can simply see the pain as it is. And later from a place of an undefended heart. It can sometimes feel never ending, like peeling the onion. Layers of ever subtler holding.
We will also find points of what is often called Grace or Shaktipat. Like the awakening itself, a point of deep surrender or even a powerful push from our depths. A push that may not even be welcome at first. This is where grace moves in and overwhelms the remaining concepts and emotions being held. It is more powerful than any resistance, any held sense of reality. It does the processing for you, unwinding everywhere in ways you cannot keep up with.
We may have run into resistance that simply cannot be released by the soul. It is too intimate, to ingrained in our reality. This is where grace is necessary.
Progress is very fast at this point, with reality shifting becoming an ongoing experience. What is at first sometimes scary becomes normal in the every present surrender. In another one of those rules changes, the process of working on resistance itself is found to be a resistance. Another part of the me. A deeper allowing needed.
Soon, the realization becomes established or what Adyashanti calls Abiding. It is no longer overshadowed by any noise or circumstances that may arise. We are moving into the integration phase. For some, grace may begin to show up before this. Before even awakening. Or it may begin to show up after the realization is fully sustained.
But we are still not at the point of balance. The place where we fully embody the inner state. This is what the journey is all about. Not realization. Not abiding. But full Embodiment. This is when we are living the realization. Where there is no resistance. When the peace and love flow through us into the world.
The embodiment of Cosmic consciousness or Self realization is called Sat Chit Ananda, Absolute Bliss Consciousness. The embodiment of Unity is wholeness, totality – words the mind cannot comprehend. This is no longer a ‘state’ of consciousness but rather the wholeness of consciousness itself.
We become the living embodiment of our very being. This is when the flowery words become a living reality. This is where the love and joy and peace are found not only within, but in the very fabric of the world. In all we experience. By being it and seeing it, we are bringing it forth into the world.
We may meet some difficulties along the road. But remember, this is a process of leaving them behind. A process of releasing and letting go. We may have to face some less pleasant things. But they will cast a shadow on us no more.