Where is the Resistance?

Resistance by Monika

The experience of resistance can be a very useful flag. But it’s important to look into it and see where it’s coming from. Is it within us or from around us? Where do we feel it? If an event arises in life and we have a strong and sustained reaction, we know there is an inner resistance and an emotional charge here to be resolved. For example, someone makes an off-hand comment that dismisses something important to us. Do we roll our eyes or flame up in anger and resentment? The latter shows a past experience is influencing our present. … Continue Reading…

Nested Dharma, Nested Karma

Nest by Furtwangl

Down on the level of Buddhi, the intellect and intuition, the interactions of the fine devata create relationships. These structure the subtle or sacred geometry that defines the forms of our world. These subtle structures are composed of sutras or threads of light. We can describe them as structured flows of light, feeling, and sound. Those fine threads are sustained by tubes, like insulation on a wire. Flowing attention curves back on itself in a spiral down the thread, creating a tube. These tubes are embodied as subtle life-forms known as nagas. These are ancient and benevolent beings, quite different … Continue Reading…

Fixing Ourselves

1950 Ford Convertible

On this blog, I regularly speak of the value of healing and cleaning up to support our spiritual journey and quality of life. However, when we have an identified ego, we’re driven by a mind and intellect who see themselves as separate and in need of protection. The intellect divides and the mind judges, often as bad. You see this in spiritual circles in insisting on the “one truth,” the “nonduality manscape,” spiritual materialism, and so on. When the ego co-opts the healing process, there is the tendency to see ourselves as broken and needing repair. Ego knows it’s not … Continue Reading…

Awakening Attitude

Jack-Jack.

Recently, I saw an excellent article by John Welwood in Tricycle magazine called The Psychology of Awakening. Too often, awakening and psychological health are seen as different worlds even though they’re closely entwined. “…even among advanced spiritual practitioners, certain islands — unexamined complexes of personal and cultural conditioning, blind spots, or areas of self-deception — may often remain intact within the pure stream of their realization.” This is very true. They can remain unseen until events trigger them. Yet even then, if we see ourselves as separate from our humanity, we may excuse our bad behaviour or blame others. I’ve … Continue Reading…

The Hard Nuts

deus-dios-god

As we shift into a greater awareness of our energy and feelings, we can find all sorts of contractions and resistance. But over time, simple awareness allows us to experience, release, and resolve whatever we discover.   But usually there is some crusted areas like the heart chakra, covered for “protection” but thus constrained and made less conscious. There can also be some hard knots or nuts that are more so. Often quite old, these are very tight contractions. They can be so tight they become inflamed, much as a star can light up from intense gravitational forces. This inflammation … Continue Reading…

Kristin Kirk on Surrendering and our Heart

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After the SAND conference, Kristin Kirk gave a talk in Berkley, CA called Surrendering and Embodying the Awakened Ecstatic Heart. This is a good one to share. On YouTube A few notes: Meeting in the heart, common to all. Even if we have a different viewpoint, we are still the same love. Then we can be open to communicate, to bridge. Bring within – food cravings? Is it reactionary or supportive movement? Currently a massive infusion of light in through our systems, cultures, and earth. Light comes in and starts to show the shadows. The more we anchor that in … Continue Reading…

The Past is Sticky

sunrise today drama in Hawaii

In discussing some points that came out of the Unbalanced Masculine article, I’ve noticed how sticky memory can be. For example, when we’ve had a long relationship with someone like a family member, we fall into certain styles of relating with them. We know things they enjoy and things they don’t, we avoid certain topics of conversation, or we don’t ask them to movies. These styles become habits and thus somewhat unconscious.   But if that person changes significantly, these habits can become glaring and clash with how they are now. Perhaps your long-single friend gets married or changes their … Continue Reading…

Feelings vs Emotions

princess pout

On this blog, I use Emotions and Feelings to mean different things, although English is a little limiting. For example, we “feel emotions,” we don’t emote them (although some sure do (laughs)). I use this classification because of how I subjectively experience them. Your experience may vary.   The first thing to understand about emotions is they’re not concepts. Trying to figure them out with the mind is an exercise in futility. This also means we’re not actually feeling, we’re thinking. We may have learned to avoid emotions by staying in the head. And that means we’re repressing how we … Continue Reading…

Dumping vs Repressing

hanging pots

While I often write about repressing our emotions, there is another style of dealing with overwhelm. In the past I’ve called it spewing. This is venting it out on others and the environment.  Just as repressing doesn’t resolve it, “sharing” it doesn’t help either. What we repress leaks out too, especially through the lower chakras. Suppression is not a great idea but spewing can be worse. The first is more common in the west but some cultures favour the latter. For one, spewing on others causes further consequences in obvious and less obvious ways. How others react or poisoning a … Continue Reading…

Types of Pain

Goddess Temple firepit, Indian Springs, Nevada

In the notes for a recent distance healing by Dorothy Rowe, she made a useful observation I wanted to share. She differentiated pain born of karma and pain born of illusion: “Pain born of karma is sharp and drives awareness inward toward the pain’s place of origin, to be thus addressed and eliminated. Pain born of illusion is remembered or anticipated pain. It drives thoughts and action while yet remaining unrealized in the present moment. When recognized and handled with discernment, pain born of karma is a tool for evolution. Pain born of illusion is a tool for creating more … Continue Reading…

The Bailiwick

There are some curious paradoxes that arise as we grow spiritually. For example, knowing we are not the body-mind yet experiencing through it anyway. Or knowing the world was never created in the first place, yet living in it. Or why creation repeats if it’s completed by our experiences of it. Another one came into focus during a conversation the other night. On the one hand, the cycles of time and rising and falling consciousness directly relate to the position of this planet in this solar system in this galaxy. A planet in another solar system in our galaxy will … Continue Reading…

Righting a Wrong

Journey

We’re all guilty of mistreating someone at some time or another. Probably of unintentional harm as well. Often, we have little idea of the consequences of our words and actions. For example, how many people have been affected by my on-line writing that I’m unaware of? People may have been moved, offended, confused, or even shamed. But will I know unless they write or comment? Yet I continue to be called to write. It’s important to understand that you have control over your actions alone, not over results. I wrote about that recently on Responsibility. You especially have no control … Continue Reading…