Death of a Story – Part 1 of 4

Here is the promised post(s). It became a minor epic. 😉 But I’ve not seen the new material further in covered anywhere else. Part 1 – Overview In the process from before awakening through to Unity, it is often described in 3 stages. Clearing the ego, the emotional drivers of that, and the core identity. Along with what can then open, these lead to awakening or self realization, God realization and Unity. Adyashanti talks about Self moving forward and adsorbing head, heart and gut. Last week, I chatted with a young fellow who woke last year. It’s interesting to explore … Continue Reading…

Blogging Home

This blog is in many ways a reflection of my process. A write up but also a journal of a journey. Because it is written, it is more the conceptual journey that follows the experiential, when the mind catches up. (laughs) To make it an experiential blog would render it, I think, useless. Individual experiences are not commonality and can be widely misunderstood as they can only be appreciated from the perspective you have. Placed in context, they have a great deal more value in sharing. It’s also a conversation of Self with Itself in a number of ways. I … Continue Reading…

Love is pain

For many people, love is pain. Conscious or not, they carry a story of disappointment and heartbreak. We see this backstory throughout our culture, with dysfunctional relationships portrayed as the norm. In the “new thought” church I go to, a significant percent of the congregation is single middle-aged women. And while they hear and follow a message of peace, they continue to hold a story of pain. Men fair worse. They’re often not even working on it. We’re trained to “be a man” and stuff our emotions away in a box. It’s no wonder many men are angry and suffer … Continue Reading…

Neti Neti

Neti Neti is an old Vedantic phrase meaning ‘Not this, not this’. Nothing of the phenomenal world or of experience. One describes That by what it is not. This is a useful starting place to review a few terms sometimes used in spiritual discussion that I don’t use much here. Simply because my own journey has not found them as useful. The Void In a meditation practice, when we first transcend the world of experience, it can be like a blank spot or void. As that gets clearer, people use many such terms to describe it. The void. Emptiness. Space. … Continue Reading…

It IS Bliss

Back on Jed or Jedi, I touched on Tom Stine’s recent posts on the books of Jed McKenna. In a further post by Tom, a readers email suggested Jed makes enlightenment sound empty and boring. Tom responds that he finds the writing attractive as it verifies his experience and that he desires truth above all else. I fully agree that ideas of enlightenment are always wrong as it has nothing to do with the person or ideas. It is the Self awakening to Itself through the point that appears to be a person. Awakening happens when the person is out … Continue Reading…

Sex and Spirituality

In a discussion on the Self Realization post, one commenter raised the question of celibacy and the spiritual path, suggesting abstinence and many years of continual celibacy were necessary for enlightenment. Until recent times, there have been fewer awake and much of the old understandings had become lopsided. In many camps, it has been thought that much force of mind and concentration is necessary to control the mind. That we must give up our possessions and become monks if we are to achieve true spiritual progress. And that complete celibacy is necessary to accomplish the spiritual goals. For example, the … Continue Reading…

The Living Story

Had an interesting insight this evening I thought worth sharing. In the past, I’ve talked about the Story, the shadow story of illusion that ego uses to explain the world. But it also keeps us trapped in illusion. I’ve also spoken about the way Maya evolves. Maya is a Sanskrit term often thought to mean illusion but it actually comes in 3 forms. When inertia is dominant, Maya is the concealer of reality. When the energy is active and intense, it is the illusion. But when the energy flows clearly, the dream becomes the field of knowledge, the play of … Continue Reading…

Deepest Release

It is fascinating to see the depth to which we can go with allowing, with letting it be as it is. When we first begin on the path, we are long used to doing to accomplish. Pushing forward toward our goals. Gradually, it becomes clear that the spiritual path is not so much about doing but rather about allowing. Of letting it be as it is. This process gradually clears the way and the observer begins to emerge, the independent witness. At some point the allowing reaches a greater depth and we surrender to what is in the moment and … Continue Reading…

Anxiety and Rationality

In another forum, a discussion around catastrophic events lead to these points. This is how the mind behaves when run by the ego concept of being separate. Firstly, the mind is not satisfied to simply have experiences. It needs to organize and categorize them in some way – good/bad, more/less, happy/sad, etc. People tend to jump to conclusions to ‘tidy things up’, even if there is insufficient evidence for a conclusion. Loose ends cause uncertainty and anxiety, which most people wish to avoid. (and this is the seed of resistance) If conclusions can’t easily be found, people look to ‘authorities’ … Continue Reading…

Entitlement

There is a kind of disease that permeates western culture. With our up until recent  stretch of prosperity, the disease became almost unchecked. That disease is entitlement. A sense of deserving, simply because of who you are. We see this in the unsustainable debt levels many people have taken on. In the expectation of ever greater profit at any expense. Marketing is full of this message. You deserve to have anything we want to sell you. We’re actually ruining the environment we need to support ourselves in this rush into meaningless consumption of products that themselves ruin our health. It … Continue Reading…

Lorne & Lucia

I’ve been keeping a bit of a secret. One of the teachers I’ve been working with had asked for no publicity. Just word of mouth. I’ve made only occasional references to their retreats or to “Lorne” but without links or details. But gradually, they have been coming forward and have now posted several videos on Youtube and have a web site [see below] in place with some of their teachings. I cannot begin to describe how important this couple has been on my own journey and that of many close friends. If you have reached a place on your journey … Continue Reading…

Heaven’s Bathroom

The discussion group continues to listen to Thich Nhat Hanh speak. Late on the third day he remarks that no one ever asks if you need to eat in heaven. He said “It is my conviction that there are restrooms in the Kingdom of God. Otherwise I couldn’t be there yet.“ While some may consider such a statement inappropriate, I think it speaks beautifully to the normalcy and presence of heaven. It is not some other place or time, but right here and now. Just as it already is. But we will not see it as long as we use … Continue Reading…