Lady Lavender

Long time readers of this blog know I’m a fan of the music of Denise Hagan. The lyrics speak to the experience and her voice has a deep potency. Last night, I was listening to her music and thought I’d share some of the lyrics to Lady Lavender.

May truth be beside you,
May truth be before you,
May truth be behind you,
as queen of your heart.

May truth be the vision,
in eyes that see,
in ears that hear,
May truth never part…

Further verses explore light and peace.

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Book Update

Just a short update on the book on higher stages project. The project itself has been going on for several years and is a subsection of a larger work written 10 years ago. It’s been cooking a long time. This has been a slow process as it’s partly been driven by what is unfolding here and in those I know. It’s driven by the lived experience rather than just concepts.

The book has completed the main editing stage and has now moved into formatting. For me, that means tackling InDesign, something I’ve not used since PageMaker days. But … Continue Reading…

What is Silence?

When we settle into deep meditation or find ourselves deep in the forest, we may experience a moment of deep silence. Not just silence outside, but silence within, a quieting of the monkey mind. This is the goal of Yoga.

At first, inner silence may be pretty unclear, like a blank spot when nothing was noticed. Without content, it’s just empty.  

As that silence becomes more familiar, we’ll notice it has a sense of presence and of being. It Is. We may find that sometimes, as we settle into silence or come out after, there is a … Continue Reading…

Digesting Contraction

There’s a take on purification I realized I’d not covered. Unlike some psychological approaches, we don’t have to dig up every trauma and challenge we’ve ever faced to clear it’s impact. That would make it essentially endless.

The vast majority of our contractions can be handled by samadhi. By stepping deep into pure being, we get a rest deeper than sleep and gradually ground ourselves in presence. With the increased rest and peace, our layers can shed baggage as a matter of course.

We’ll also probably have more robust contractions that have been deeply reinforced or … Continue Reading…

Flavours of Bliss

It may seem ridiculous to say this but everything we experience and the movement and energy behind them can be experienced as bliss. By that I mean deep, resonant happiness. Life is like an ice cream store with a nearly infinite choice of flavours. There is nowhere to go to get there. It is right here in who is experiencing.

If you’ve seen Gangaji give satsang, for example, she will guide a person suffering under their experience. Behind everything is always stillness or bliss. It’s deeply nourishing to know this directly, however we come to that experience. … Continue Reading…

For the Brave

The spiritual path is not for the faint of heart. It’s all about becoming more conscious. But this means everything – not just the Divine and the heavens but the suffering and darkness too. And everything in between.

Anywhere we’re not willing to look is a place we’re not accepting and is not conscious. It is thus a place of shadow.

For most people, the inside of their body is unseen, only occasionally felt, and largely unknown. And what of their emotional and mental bodies? Within that we’ll each have places of deeper shadow. It takes time … Continue Reading…

Supporting Delusion

In the process of becoming more conscious, we’ll discover deep, long-held delusions. Some of them will be carefully defended and stashed in unconscious corners. Yet they’ll continue to influence our choices and behaviour.

For example, we may seek enlightenment as an escape from our problems. Or think I, personally, will get enlightened. Or the right partner will meet all of our unmet needs. Or  money is a solution. Or money is evil. Or I’m a sinner. Or I can be perfect. The list goes on and on.

The key feature of a delusion is that it’s something we hold against what … Continue Reading…

Our Natural Laws

Our Natural Laws are those that are emphasized and expressing here in our life. Like our DNA, we’re all built of the same laws but each of us have a small percent that vary in emphasis, leading to differences in physiology, ability, personality, and life events.

Making our gifts, strengths, and weakness more conscious makes our life easier, even if we are not always happy with what we find. Tools like Jyotish can help us see dynamics that are less conscious.

Liberation frees us from identification and attachment to these dynamics but does not end their influence. We still have … Continue Reading…

Our Choices

Over the years, I’ve explored my family tree and done DNA testing. It’s fascinating to see how a family evolves and what changes things.

For example, my father was born in New Zealand and spent his early years on a cattle ranch. His father developed a health issue, and they chose to migrate back to western Canada where he had met his Australian wife.

Had they not made that choice, my parents would not have met and this form would not have been created. In fact, there are innumerable choices innumerable people made over the years … Continue Reading…

Drive into Flow

We have long lived under the ego-self and its claims of doership. Thoughts and emotions arise naturally from various stimuli and ego calls them mine. “I feel sad,” we say. Or “I’ve been thinking.” In fact, these are simply happening and we’re noticing.

Some people like artists culture a deeper sense of being to connect to creativity and intuition. They may speak of the muse or inspiration moving through them.

Similarly, spiritual seekers try to culture a deeper sense of being. As their perception refines, they notice that thoughts and emotions simply arise, mostly without their … Continue Reading…

Witnessing Sleep

As consciousness awakens within, we can have periods of time when we experience being a detached observer or witness of our life. Our life continues but we are no longer seen as the doer. We observe while life continues.

What I describe is not a disassociative state or escape from life’s problems. We don’t get there through avoidance or hanging out in the dreamy astral. This is a shift into consciousness itself, beyond all that. We find it through acceptance of what is here.

If we’re well-rested, this witness may continue throughout waking, dreaming and deep sleep. Alertness … Continue Reading…

Clarity vs Doubt

On a recent retreat, an important point came up about awakening. But first, a little background.

I’ve written before about the 3 parts of awakening – the actual shift, the experiences that may come with it, and the purification that may also take place. It’s not unusual for there to be a big release with the shift.

To help avoid confusion for the mind, it’s important to understand that the experiences of opening and purification are not it. They are effects and they are experiences. Awakening itself is not an experience. It is a shift … Continue Reading…