It’s astonishing how much internal conflict most people carry. Yet it’s considered entirely normal to walk around under a cloud of noise. Often people don’t realize how much pain they radiate. The stories we maintain about ourselves and life (just listen to our thoughts or what we tell others) make it seem OK. Why? Because we need to feel in control, to be safe in an apparently painful and dangerous world.
Ironically, we don’t realize how much we’re contributing to this. And because it’s a shadow or fog, we fail to see. We simply live in the middle of a swamp without seeing the way out.
Because our outer life expresses our inner life, it expands and expresses that pain, confirming the stories and the reality of the swamp.
This is why clearing and settling down within does wonders for settling down our world.
How do you recognize inner conflict?
When we experience others conflicting with us.
When we mechanically react to circumstances with an emotional charge.
When we behave in irrational or compensatory ways.
When our mind is constantly looking for “reasons” to make it OK.
When our mind babbles on about nothing.
When we resist what life is bringing.
Complicating the drama is unresolved past experiences coming around again to be resolved (aka karma). So we have what we’re asking for, how we’re responding, and what life is bringing all mixed in a stew we call “my life.”
One saving grace is that the internal conflict cancels out some of the “asking”, reducing the intentions we don’t actually want, like the common habit of dwelling on what might go wrong.
As we resolve some of this backlog, we slowly step out of the inner conflict. Life then brings bits of eventfulness or drama we can wind down quickly. Because we’re fairly clear inside, what needs to be resolved is clearer. And because there’s so much less volume of it, the task is straightforward. Gradually over time, life winds down rather than up. It becomes a sequence of unfolding experiences and fulfilling desires rather than difficulty, drama, and pain.
Be patient with yourself. These are huge habits we’ve carried for thousands of years. It takes time to bring peace into all levels of experience.