Over on Beyond Happiness, Kaushik asked:
“The question: What is the red pill of awakening?
I can now see why I’ve lived in the “dualistic” mind for most of my life. Let’s call this the first obstacle. Once we realize that the mind-stuff is delusion, why don’t we instantly awaken? What is the resistance? (Let’s call this the second obstacle of awakening).
I’m not looking for the usual answers. Yes, it’s the tricks of the ego, and expectations of awakening, and beliefs and desires, the meaning of awakening, attachment to practice, trying to achieve awakening, and the rest. You might say the journey is necessarily a meander, and what we need will manifest at the right time. Fair enough. But not good enough.
What I’m exploring is this: what transcends all of this instantly?
It seems that Consciousness would delight if we awakened. Once we see the delusion, and the intention is there, why does it take time and space?”
Firstly, it’s good to have some experience of Self within, of our true nature. Thus we have a sense of a ‘target’. This is why I recommend effortless meditation.
The second obstacle you mention I call the core identity. It has the quality of gripping in the gut and typically remains sub-conscious until well after awakening. This seems to be a catch-22. But the release of the identity leads to the second awakening or unity so it’s clearly not necessary yet.
We don’t awaken when we realize the mind is illusion because it’s the mind that has realized that. It is not the mind that wakes up. It may seem I am my concepts. This is of course identification. If we are in it, we can’t see we are. Tricky stuff.
Understand that the mind is a habit machine. Even after a realization, it still regurgitates it’s story. The core identity or holding, the source of the resistance, is still present driving the drama. Also note that the sub-conscious mind operates much faster than conscious mind, making it tricky to out-maneuver. But because it runs from habit, we can see the patterns. Once fully seen, they can be cleared.
We also don’t awaken (necessarily) with soul awakening. When we realize we are that inner transcendent silence. We realize our inner connection with source and may thereafter feel as a detached witness. But at the same time, the ego maintains it’s story. So we remain both ego and Self in some value. Close but no cigar.
Not to downplay such realizations though. Many of us will have a whole series of realizations on our journey. A few are key markers but each do contribute.
Why does it take time and space? It doesn’t. It simply appears to occur that way. Understand that the world exists as a way for Self to discover itself. Without qualities, how can it be known? Time and space arise from the process of experience. Without a process, the mechanism cannot be seen. Thus awakening seems to occur in time and space so the process can be known. Without that, I could not answer your question. It would have simply happened, as it does for some.
So to your main question. The red pill? In a word, surrender.
That is the key to ‘instant’ enlightenment. It is the mechanism of awakening. It is only when we fully surrender, even for just a moment, that we shift from being a person experiencing Self to being Self experiencing a person. This is awakening.
From what I’ve seen, this is MUCH easier to do around the awake. It’s not necessary but easier. They can also confirm the new experience as well. When we’re in the world of the not awake, there is no pattern to emulate except in occasional deep meditations. Around the very awake, the sense of Self is much stronger, so we can “mirror” being much more easily and are also more confident to surrender to it.
By comparison, you may have experienced the benefits of group meditation or intention. Just remember, it’s all about the group. There is no person here so any idea of “doing it myself” or “I will awaken” is bogus. Awakening has nothing to do with a me. The Me is the illusion to wake from.
I know some people who have ‘popped’ by themselves, but it’s much more common on a conference call with a group or on a retreat. I’ve been on retreats where 2/3 of the people were awake. Almost everyone who wasn’t already, was within a couple of days. Even people you’d never dream as being “ready”. All they had to do is let go into what was felt palpably.
Partly, this speaks to our time, that it has become much easier. It once took months of long meditation to experience what is routine now.
Consciousness more than delights when one awakens. For the Self, it’s like awakening further. This is where “popping” comes from. You feel yourself ‘popping’ larger when someone awakens. In a group, there is often a wave of laughter and crying for joy. Sometimes, love flows in astonishing ways.
You cannot awaken through the mind, with any technique or teaching or understanding. They can bring you to the door but it’s you that has to step through. But the stepping is not something you do. It’s the stopping of doing. It’s the divine surrender. It’s the allowing so deeply, it’s more like you fall through the door. Just fully let go and allow it to be as it is. No conditions. Awareness Now, as you mentioned. Thats it.
Remember that you already are That. It is only a matter of letting go of any ideas that make you not that. Or think they do. Some people describe it like remembering. The Self remembering Itself through you.
For many people, awakening is a surprise. It’s completely natural and normal. As we are that, we may be astonished we missed it.
You may have heard all of this before. But sometimes, it can just be a different hearing. I used to equate surrender with blind faith. But one day, I heard it differently…
Then the journey can really begin.